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Why?

Why?
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why oh why dear God
do you make these situations?
Yes I will try..
again and
again
to make things better
with my mother.
You know I will (try)
not knowing why I will
with
patience
kindness
restraint
just like You ask.
But You know it isn't getting any better
and it won't
it hasn't
it never does.
So,
why oh why dear God
do you make these situations?

Try, I will
and
fail, I will
again.
At bat,
I have struck out
for thirty years.
I've pushed that rock uphill
so many times
up so many hills (you know it)
almost every time it rolled back
and put the hurt on me.
Napolean succeeded his seventh time
he had it easy I see.
So,
why oh why dear God
do you make these situations?

So I ask, Is it about strength?
Does each attempt make me stronger
yes, maybe
Does it make me a better person
in the end?
when it ends...
perhaps
perhaps not
Do i do it better the next time?
sometimes
sometimes not
So,
what if I am stronger?
or bette…