Showing posts from February, 2016

What is it to be a muslim today u ask?

lemme see...
it is to freeze every time there is a shooting, and
to pray that it wasn't a Muslim shooter
it is to watch as event unfolds and to cry into your hands
as you find out that it is
it is to wonder what your book, belief and tradition
could have told someone else something you've never read
it is to wonder how perversion
can get so perverted
how interpretation
can be so misinterpretive.
how self righteousness went so wrong.
It is to feel sorry, so genuinely sorry for what was done
by others of your faith
in the very same God's name
it is to feel the responsibility not for the crime
but for the apology
however impotent
however uncalled for
however discouraged by the many
who act as if
saying sorry for something
being sorry to someone
is akin to accepting the criminality.
No its not, it cannot be!
it is human to say sorry
to feel sorry,
for my heart at least.


...its what to do with time...

the young think they have time
the old think they don't I sit in the middle
and wonder how to slice my time
There are too many things to do
many competing priorities
and time not enough for them all...
the hardest is to take the little time that's left after the must-do's are tended, and
decide how to fill it.
Do I give my best time to a charitable unselfish cause,
turn inward to a purely selfish indulgence, or
proceed to the next to-do in my infinite list?
Should I just toss out all those nice-to-do endeavors in my life?
Or is through them that I find some spiritual peace?
How much should I focus on the kids, or will they figure it all out themselves?
What turns into selfish, and
what is selfless?
Does either satisfy the soul?
I don't know...
its as simple as, should I cook dinner and do right by the family,
or should I order pizza and watch the game instead?
should I get some extra work done for Monday,
or should I take my mother shopping on Sunday?
should I go to yoga…

A Palanca for Kat's Confirmation

Dear Kat, GOD loves you and holds a special place for YOU! Your confirmation as a Catholic is the next formal step in your religious life. However, know that the evolution of your personal faith and spirituality in an infinite , fluid and wonderful road. One that I urge you to think-about, plan and work-upon as seriously as you would your career, your education and your human relationships! It is the essence of your relationship with God and through your belief in Him, it is your guide in this lifetime of decisions and actions. Here are some ideas I strive to live by and hopefully they will appeal to you and you will practice them in your life: - Always remember that there is a God. No matter what is going on in the world and how little sense it sometimes makes, KNOW that He is in charge of this His beautiful world and He will accomplish whatever He wishes. - Use God's guidance in your life. God's revelation was sent to you and me for a reason. So understand it, reason with it, …


I bet that there is
a person driving the Spanish Alps
with Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan blasting on this car speakers
the sounds of a sitar
woven into his inimitable voice
as it parades up and down his infinite range
evoking sadness, pathos and yearning
from a young Spanish heart
that understands no Urdu
not a word that Nusrat sings
not a vow he pledges
not an endearment he utters
yet is in tears by the end of the song
believing that he is one with the passion in every note,
the urgency in every strain
the love in every refrain.
....I believe this because
I am driving down the New York Highway
playing a Gypsy Kings record for the millionth time
my heart riding the wave of that gypsy's emotions
my eyes running a tear-bath at the feelings of
loss, love, friendship and yearning
that emanate from these Spanish songs...
who's words I cant read
but who's language I understand!!!

Light and Dark

A radiant, brilliant sun
rises into the window on the right
a dark heavy fog 
overhangs the vista outside my left
it is emerging day on my right
and unyielding night on my left
deliberately, my plane flys
on a line between night and day
between a clearing, vivid and unveiling skyscape, and
an equally powerful misty, mysterious and concealing cloudscape.
Even as I discover the wonders
that are now emerging on one side
my eyes  seeking comfort from the glare
turn to the other.
One part of me is excited
for the new possibilities.
the other nostalgic
for the old and departing greyness.
This is the destiny of the human being...
to walk the territories in between
the apparent and
the hidden.
to travel this lifetime
for an understanding.
to create clarity
in the midst of
a mostly grey ambiguous world...

Level with the plane now
the sun shines into my right face
confronting, challenging and awakening,
Clarifying, revealing, comforting
like a torch aimed at the truth
to which I so seek to arrive.
The world at…

Faiz I was in Austin, and you were not...

Faiz i missed you this week.
I was in austin
and you were not...
I met your daughters
I had dinner with them
I ate chicken tikka
and invoked your name.
We talked about school
we talked about life
Faiz I missed you this week
I was in austin
and you were not...

You would love our town,
its all grown up,
just like you'd wanted.
You would love your daughters,
they're all grown up,
just like you'd planned.
This town misses you
your daughters miss you
we were in austin
and you were not...

Google is happening here
Facebook is looking to hire you
they are in town
and you are not...

So many desi restaurants to choose from
all kinds of software to write
shopfulls of books that you'd read, and
a sky looking for the kites you'd fly.
Faiz all things missed you this week
we were in austin
and you were not...

With Ali I did yoga
with the Khataw's I shopped hats
we walked thru the volleyball court
and what's left of that Domain.
There we played years ago
and became friends for life.
Faiz we missed you…